Today was a really really good day for me. I did what I really needed to do- be socially isolated for quite some time and get back in touch with ma soullllll.
Today there was no show- just a day off in Fenton, Missouri twenty minutes outside of St. Louis. I got up around 930, we had arrived at the hotel a good half hour beforehand. First thing I did after meditating was eat breakfast… why you might ask???… they had free hotel breakfast only until 10 and I really wanted to take advantage of that while it lasted rather than let myself starve to death hehe. Had some eggs and cereal with Felix and went up to my room to put away my bags.
I moved from one goal to another with the efficiency of a lightning bolt. It felt a little bit like detox for my brain… I had some plans to warmup, workout, go shopping, and organize my notes, but I did so much more. Let’s brainstorm a list shall we, ONLY, in truth, to satisfy my own desire for closure at the end of such a day. (If you wanna skip it all go to the last paragraph I won’t judge you hehe).
I wanted to cancel my membership to that Calm meditation app (nothing you can’t google in my opinion), then I got a text about a jury summons from my mom that got sent to my home address so I emailed a lady about changing my address through them, but she said to go through the DMV, so I printed a change of address form in the lobby, filled it out and mailed it later in the night but ultimately I only needed to provide a picture of my housing lease to get the summons postponed… AAAnnnd then I did a workout at the teeny tiny baby fitness center they had… was running off tiny bits of food but honestly that feels real good and I can go hard for a long period of time. Warmed up on the trompert and then did my outing for the day. Went to QDoba Mexican Grill (basically a better Chipotle with more options, I was impressed), lady driving the Uber was really nice- it’s a small town so these drivers only get a couple rides a day.. and she asked me if she’d be taking me straight back to the hotel afterwards… that never happens in LA! Ate half the burrito, did a bunch of target shopping, bought sandals/shower shoes, checked my bank account and realized I had an amazon digital purchase I couldn’t verify (one of my brothers bought a month of HBO on my account agaaaiiiinnn but I called amazon and cancelled it and got my $15 back… like what do you need HBO for with all the freakin entertainment you have). Got some Chinese food down the street after crossing this deathtrap of an intersection (had to sprint through the thing to not die), and got an uber back to the hotel. That driver was Puerto Rican, she remarked on how I was saying Los Angeles wrong (it’s “los AHN-heh-lis”). Put my stuff away (toothpaste, mouthwash, tide detergent pods so I don’t have to buy it at hotels, nail clippers for obvious reasons, some Larabars because I need me some dates.. that was a pun you’re supposed to laugh).
OK I won’t bore you with the rest of my day but I didn’t see too much more of the crew. Went to say hi to Gina, Wayne, and Felix around 6- they had been just relaxin most of the day. Someone had to send a really angry email to all of us because the bus keeps not getting locked throughout the day. Also, no supply run today! It’ll happen tomorrow (just made a list with Dave and threw out some three week old milk… I’m finally getting my blueberries and soymilk). Filmed an instagram video, watched a few computer science videos by this channel Computerphile (trying to get into that world), texted the mother (important to stay in touch with the loved ones), and packed the stuff up for 930 pm bus call.
I kinda fought throughout the day to keep myself inside— I know that I always do good work on my own and feel rushed and hurried if I unnecessarily go out just for the sake of filling up my day. When I feel I need the company of others I jump all over the opportunity. I think that individuality is a really important skill that not a lot of people have. On the other hand I could really use to relax sometimes, and I don’t think I should have a day of this intensity every day (even though this is a pretty light day by school year comparison). Touring is hard, and it can start to feel like you exist only for the sake of others- to glorify them for a couple hours and then reclude into meaninglessness. Other people provide the sense of worth- I look forward to seeing the crew and talking with them every morning and night- and my internal sense of drive provides the purpose to it all. Ohh also sidenote- if you keep your luggage under the bus, grab tomorrow’s clothes before you checkout of the hotel and keep them at the end of your bunk with you so that shower time in the morning is a breeze.
Haven’t been vlogging much lately, hope to make up for it tomorrow. We’re en route to Chicago, Illinois baby! Mark, a good family friend of my parents whom I’ve never met, is coming to the show tomorrow- excited to meet him! Let’s catch me some z’s- until tomorrow, keep on chooglin.